Notes of a Paranoid Schizophrenic

You know, I am notorious for avoiding doing homework, and lately I’ve been driving around in my car listening to my ipod plugged into my cassette adapter plugged into the radio (hey, don’t knock it, it works just fine).

So I’ve been listening over and over to Karim Hajee’s 4 week Creating Power program.  This program requires the student to stop from time to time and do an exercise, a writing exercise.  Well, this always derails me right away.  My mind goes, “What, you mean pull off to the side of the road right here and write something down?  Are you kidding me??  Like I’m going to do that!” and so, I push on, eager to hear the next piece of sage advice Karim gives me.

Sometimes you have to hear something 20 times before you act on it, and it hit me over the head today as I was driving back from helping out a buddy, and all my other work today, I was listening to Karim (OK, I was only half-listening, but I’m ADD remember?)  Suddenly it shook me to the bone that that aforementioned thought, that was a habit!  That’s exactly the old thinking that I am striving to change, remember?  Well, Duhh!  But it still doesn’t make it easy to do one’s homework, just easier.

That’s part of the reason for writing this blog, actually.  I realized, I really don’t mind writing if I have an audience (and I know what that’s like, as a former weekly contributor to our local rag, The Whistler Question.  Now I have a cure for my avoidance mechanism - make it fun!  Tell it out loud!  Hopefully, soon, people will come and read my blog…

Anyhow, getting back to AFFIRMATIONS, some of Karim’s exercises require one to say affirmations a few times a day.  My brain does the same thing, it says “Ya right.  Like I’m going to utter something over and over again that I don’t believe… Harumph!  I can’t do this affirmations thing, so what’s next Karim?

And yet this is exactly what Karim is talking about… it’s that persistant negative mindset again, what he calls the Great Deceiver.  It’s a negative thought that automatically preempts the positive one.  I’m not even giving the positive one a chance, because it seems a little corny.  Voila!  Negative thought wins, just like it always does.

It’s the very thing that Karim is striving to teach us.. Get Rid of the Negative Thoughts.  They are nothing but a bad habit.

From today forth, I am going to do my affirmations, I am going to do my affirmations, I am going to do my affirmations.

Until next,

Cheers.

***The purpose of this blog is to learn how to be happy and successful***